Home is Where My Heart Is

Well, its official. Yen is here to stay.

He didn't want the fancy feast, he didn't want the cool air-conditioned room, he didn't want the sweet RC biscuits.

All he wanted was home.

Guess I am his home :).

Welcome home my silly little boy!

Heart Wrenching

My beautiful boy went to his new home today, with his new mummy. I cried. I cried a river. Barely a few hours i'm already missing him. D room seems empty and lifeless. No more Yen running away with my earring. No more Yen hiding my tweezers under the mat. No more Yen.

My beautiful adorable boy who loves to snuggle up beside me. My boy who loves to burrow his head under my blanket. My boy who loves to share my pillow to rest his head.

My heart hurts, but for his sake i let him go. He deserves more than i can give, and i hope he will find happiness in his new home.

My dear beautiful Yen.

Much Ado About Nothing

Growing up, I went throught life without "feeling". I couldn't understand affection much, why do people hug? why do people touch? My feelings were always pent up inside me. Well hidden, never for public display. That does not mean i dont "feel" love, i do, i just dont know how to show it. or perhaps its more i didnt know that i am suppose to show it.

As i get older, somehow, i learnt that i need to start learning to say what i feel. To my dismay, my display of "affection" is sometimes to my peril.

The World Moving

Kisahnye..aku masih ingat time si Dina ni kecik. haku main cak-cak ngan dia. Tup tup da bertunang lak budak tuh. I havent spoken to her da lama..i mean, speak as in having a real conversation. Setakat hai-hai bye-bye tu ado la.

Yang aku ingat kalu dia datang raya umah every year or 2 years, dia akan tersipu-sipu malu sokmo, pastu tolong basuh pinggan. Berat sungguh mulut dia nak kecoh-kecoh. Bersopan santun , xmacam kakak sedara dia ni :).

Hari dia bertunang, aku cube la shoot mane-mane yg patut, praktis kekdahnye. I spent some time with her in d room 2 orang n chatted. waah, she has grown up to b a fine lady la. very sweet jek, allhamdullilah. Beruntung ler tunang dia, seriously. When d world is now turning upside down, and youngsters punyer attitude la ni tah cam ape, m really glad masih ade anak gadis yg jaga budi pekerti like her. Ala-ala pompuan melayu terakhir la.

Lepas balik dari d event, haku mula la menung. Rase cam everything around me seme moving forward, tapi tang part haku ni ha..masih terkepit-kepit perjalanannye. Cam siput jek. Yang wat haku riso kalu-kalu ade plak yg tabur garam, mau terbongkang plak siput tu sebelum sampai ke destinasinye! *siput tu haku la tu*.

Pepe pun i wish my adik well and pray that her perjalanan xkan semasin perjalanan hidup kakaknye ini!

Helang Terbang Tinggi

Tiap petang as i race my car up AKLEH, da jadi habit haku musti dongak ke atas, just to catch a glimpse of si helang tu. Kekadang haku saje race ngan dia semata-mata to watch him glide through the sky. Such magnificent creature, hilang sekejap semua kerisauan dunia aku.

Memang dari dulu haku mmg suka sangat tengok helang. Dulu study kat Qtan, bule jugak haku sekodeng dorang kat Benteng tuh, cantik sungguh. Masa haku pindah kat office baru Plaza Pantai ni pun ade sepasang helang ni selalu singgah kat tingkat office aku. Duduk la haku kat pantry tuh sambil minum kopi ditemani burung helang ku. Lama da xnampak pasangan nih, kot2 helang AKLEH ni helang aku ke?

Bila haku drive, otak haku selalu pikir kan segala macam kekusutan dunia. Tu la masenye haku tunekan otak ni so I can cope with the world better. Kadang2 haku end up meleleh airmata. Tapi lately nih, bile haku nampak si helang, haku bule let go semuanye dengan senang sekali. Haku tarik nafas panjang, dan aku senyum...sebab helang ni tunjuk kat aku, dunia ni sebenarnye luas terbentang, aku cume perlu bukakan mata dan terbang.

One of these days, m getting that telephoto lense on AKLEH!

Ungkit Mengunkit; Jongket Betul!

Aku da kata aku tak nak. Ko nak kasi jugak. Aku tak nak, ko nak kasi jugak. Aku ambil. Ko kate aku ambil. Da aku kata aku tak nak, ko nak kasi jugak ngape kate aku ambil.

Ko kasi, aku ambil. Aku ambil, ko kate aku.

Aku da kata, aku TAK NAK!

Pengat Pisang - (Sweet Banana Stew?)

I love pengat. Be it pisang or durian, both I just love. Pengat is actually like stew, but sweet. I thought it would be hard to make but after I googled, rupenye its just a piece of cake!

All you need is some coconut milk, gula kabung (coconut or is it palm? sugar), pandan leaves and of course some bananas.

Throw everything in and ur done

There is another thing i use to wonder about though, Gula Kabung. I love these as well. I use to cut some into bite size n nibble on them (I still do!). They are just so so sweet n delicious!

How do you make gula kabung i wonder?