when the sun sets, the day ends

On the day when the wind was blowing
On the day when the season was warm
The image of me resting in your arms
Is still there.

To the days we use to love to the point of tears
To the days we used to be happy
Can't I go back?
Though it hurts, though this moment is my last
I hope you will hold me in your arms.

Becoming dust that flies in the wind
Becoming rain that falls down the window
If only I could go wherever you are
Then I could throw away my everything
To the days we use to love to the point of tears
To the days we used to be happy
Can't I go back?
Though it hurts, though this moment is my last
I hope you will hold me in your arms.

I am standing alone in the darkness
Afraid like a lost child
My heart is frozen
If I could go back just once
You can come to me whenever
I will always be at that place
Don't break down against time

Blowing the Dust

Hmmm..lamanye tak update. I went back to read on all my previous post...hehehe..nampak sangat m not good at bloggin. writing is just not my thing...i think i would do better with a recording button on my forehead. i have so much i want to share, my tots...but yet..i just cant bring myself to write it. kalu ade button kan senang, ade je tots..teeeeeeet..press d button..*note to myself - never ever do a post with part 1-2-3...u'll never get there*

one of d reason i hesitated, i guess is because i linked my FB to here. knowing my friends may drop by n actually read what i write..err..makes me nervous. kenapa ek? mayb because m afraid they wont like me if they know d real me? ke? :) entah ler..insecurities byk sgt kot...

i took long leave from work. tot nak travel, but tak jadi plak, so decided to just lazy around d house. gaji plak lambat lagi cam last month, so all time low la morale..hissh. i really got to get a grip.

so what do i do? layaaaaaaaaaaan...sehari 2-3 kali ulang tgk twilight..yes u heard me..dok tgk the golden eye vampire. i dig..i really dig - "i feel very protective of u" - cecewaaaaah! ni hantu budak beep punye keje la nih.

she called me one evening n wanted to drag me to see a vampire movie. i like horror2 movies ni so we went, tgk midnit kunun. NEW MOON - tenganga jap mulut gue lam wayang tuh, nasib gelap takde sape nampak. dok pikir..pe kes..ni bukan citer horror! n sexiest vampire??? u gotta be kidding me!

i couldnt comprehend. citer plak cam rush jek, it was enjoyable, but somehow or rather i felt it was rushed! cam trying to cram everything in there. gelak besar haku bile kuar dr panggung. dak beep still insisted it was good, n i should watch d first part to fully appreciate it..oooh ade 1st part rupenye..duh!

i forgot about it, sampai la i mentioned this to my niece who excitedly said "auntie! kan kat rumah auntie ade dvd twilight tu!" - ade meh?? hahahaha indeed ade.

so there. i got hooked. dang.

i must say, rob pattison ni very talented actor. i just love how he potrays ed cullen. mimik muka dia, just wonderful. i think jalan cerita saga nih, i prefer director twilight, somehow ade more soul in it compared to NM, must be a woman thing :) u just cant help watching it over n over again because evertime i see something new...kat background, kat tepi...mende2 kecik that u dont notice at first.

music byk piano so very touching..rob is also a musician yg tera main piono..heheheh



and the kiss part..mmg deserve the award pun.

getting the books plak after this!

Like a Pie with a Huge Dent In the Middle

Haku benci la.

It never use to be like this. Dulu 24/7 available, always there. Kalu not in sight pun, every time a message was sent tru the air, ade la timbul. Sekarang tak cam dulu. Kalu timbul pun setakat jengah kepala. Kalu singgah lama musti sbb panas, kalu tak panas memang tak bersuara gamaknye.

Haku benci la.

Sakit hati nih. Hati mula la pikir bukan-bukan. Yea, hati yg fikir, bukan otak. Sbb kalu otak fikir musti waras, sbb haku masih waras, rasanye la...

Haku benci la.

Kenapa nak pijak pie aku? Kenapa mesti lanyak-lanyakkan pie aku? Walau hanya pijak kat tengah je, walau hanya wat lubang kat tengah je...kenapa mesti?

Tapi...

Padan jugak ngan muka aku. Sapa suruh letak merata-rata kan...

Itsy Bitsy Tiny Little World

Tadi ade org tanye haku, "you kenal yus?"

Haku sengih jek...

Sampai sudah la kot org associate haku ngan yus. walau da berkurun haku xdengar kabar berita dia. ghupenye budak nih used to be his neighbour mase duk kat2 sini dulu. ikut kate dia kira depa nih rapat gak. mase ni kiranye haku mmg masih ngan yus lagi, tapi pelik gak awat yus xpenah plak citer pepe...jeng jeng jeng. budak tu plak cam taw lebih2 jek cite haku...jeng jeng jeng

xkisah la kan, mende da lepas lama giler. depa berdua pun da beranak-pinak. yg wat haku tergelak beso tu bile dia kate "eh kesian u kan, sampai sekarang u tunggu dia xkawin2 eh!". buleh? wakakakaka....

kalu da org sebut tu kan, mula la haku tingat kisah2 lama, kengkawan lama yg sesame wat keje2 tak bepekdah! heheheh..haku ni xder la ramai kawan, yg mane ado tu..tu je la kawan haku dr mudo sampai la ke tuo ni ha..

tapi tu la, if anyone were to ask me...would i ever change anything? well, my answer...

entah..perhaps..maybe. tapi kalu la dulu haku amik konar lain la kan..rasenye arini xder de haku nak bule beli kete sendiri, merasa keje ade bilik sendiri bagai. mau haku terperap kat umah ngan anak sedozen kot!

tu la org kate, u can never tell d future. berchenta bagai nak rak akhirnye habuk pun tarak..heheheh

tapi yg pasti haku taw, experience melalui seme tuh mmg menuntut byk kesabaran dari diri aku. dan experience tu jugak menjadikan aku, aku hari ini...peace!

Helang Terbang Tinggi

Tiap petang as i race my car up AKLEH, da jadi habit haku musti dongak ke atas, just to catch a glimpse of si helang tu. Kekadang haku saje race ngan dia semata-mata to watch him glide through the sky. Such magnificent creature, hilang sekejap semua kerisauan dunia aku.

Memang dari dulu haku mmg suka sangat tengok helang. Dulu study kat Qtan, bule jugak haku sekodeng dorang kat Benteng tuh, cantik sungguh. Masa haku pindah kat office baru Plaza Pantai ni pun ade sepasang helang ni selalu singgah kat tingkat office aku. Duduk la haku kat pantry tuh sambil minum kopi ditemani burung helang ku. Lama da xnampak pasangan nih, kot2 helang AKLEH ni helang aku ke?

Bila haku drive, otak haku selalu pikir kan segala macam kekusutan dunia. Tu la masenye haku tunekan otak ni so I can cope with the world better. Kadang2 haku end up meleleh airmata. Tapi lately nih, bile haku nampak si helang, haku bule let go semuanye dengan senang sekali. Haku tarik nafas panjang, dan aku senyum...sebab helang ni tunjuk kat aku, dunia ni sebenarnye luas terbentang, aku cume perlu bukakan mata dan terbang.

One of these days, m getting that telephoto lense on AKLEH!

Ungkit Mengunkit; Jongket Betul!

Aku da kata aku tak nak. Ko nak kasi jugak. Aku tak nak, ko nak kasi jugak. Aku ambil. Ko kate aku ambil. Da aku kata aku tak nak, ko nak kasi jugak ngape kate aku ambil.

Ko kasi, aku ambil. Aku ambil, ko kate aku.

Aku da kata, aku TAK NAK!

Sepetang Di Putrajaya

From Bandar Baru Bangi we were off to Putrajaya, should have known better. Outings camni never ever ends early! Tapi honestly, penat weh ke BBB, jauh ghupenye..sian my feline motor friend, sehari suntuk on d road.

Besar sungguh ikan-ikan kat situ, melompat2 bile diberi makan geram tengoknye. Ade jugak bot yg bole naik keliling tasik nih (tasik eh?) tapi mahal sungguh. Kalu berdua saja xper ni ramai so we all decided to skip the ride :)

A Picture Paints A Million Stories

My favourites so far, nak kater cantik tak la juga. but they make me smile. although i'm still struggling to master my ISOs, appetures...etc, i'm just going to enjoy this for the moment :) and not think too much into it. i'm liking my crib too much to leave...

Moving On

I should really change the description on this blog eh? Its turning out to be a place where i share things i feel like sharing rather than a "sell-buy' things (in my defence, i did profess i was never ever good/interested in trading!).

2009 seems to be starting out awful for me, its tiring. but i cant stop now and i shan't give up. I am working and prying (hard) for things to get better. I hope it does, soon, before i lose my marbles for good.

"God, give me strength. God make it easier, for i am doing it not just for me, but for them. I need to give him peace" - amin.

Hoping y'all are having a better start of the year!

Wedding Project

The Barren Land (eh?) Part 1

Jinnah Airport, Karachi Pakistan

Usually when i travel i would insist on a direct flight, for the simple reason that i do not enjoy being cooped up in a plane with no where to run! i will start to hyperventilate :) i will make sure that i get an aisle seat too. it makes moving around easier especially when u travel alone, its no fun having to wake up a stranger from slumber when u have to go to the girls room.

this time around, i was so blur blur i booked the wrong flight! an hour stop in Karachi. we weren't allowed to leave the plane though, luckily most of the passenger got off in Karachi so it was not so bad, room to breathe.

It was a pity they didn't let us out, it would have been nice to look around since I've never been to Pakistan b4, entah bile plak bule sampai nanti. I found out that the airport was actually named after the founder of Pakistan, Muhd Ali Jinnah. Previously it was known as Quaid-e-Azam which means "Great Leader" a nick name they gave Muhd Ali Jinnah. - I slept less ignorant that night :)

Time to say goodbye